I'm so mad at myself. As I mentioned yesterday I have been craving PB and Chocolate. I've been avoiding it. This morning, woke up an hour early so I could do my Biggest Loser DVD, fiance was sick so I stayed in bed with him. Grabbed a tea which I don't do on Thursdays because I really wanted a cinnamon bun and a new bakery just opened so I thought, okay I'm doing well... I'll get one and support the new business.

Tea in hand, I went in ready to order my cinnamon bun. They didn't have any. So I settled for a raisin bran muffin because I hate when customers oooh and ahhh but never buy anything. I try not to be that person.

Got to work, got ready to eat my muffin. It was gross... it felt like it was sitting there for 4 days, was hard and not enjoyable.

Needless to say, I was not impressed. When our salesperson came in with Tim Hortons timbits I had 3 or 4. Now I feel horrible about it.
I was so mad about the muffin that I gouged myself on timbits.

I'm going to do pilates tonight to make up for it.
Hopefully I won't hurt for 4 days afterwards, maybe only 3.

How do you deal with cravings?
I'm having a wicked craving for peanut butter and chocolate and I would just love to run across the street to Dollarama and get PB Cups but I'm not.
Do you buy the lower calorie version? Last time I had this craving, I bought gluten free pb and chocolate bars but I don't want to go that route just yet.

In other news... 49 fricking lbs! The scale couldn't even give me a break and say 50 lbs.
It just couldn't.

Well its the end of January... I have lost... 6 lbs this month. Are you joshing me? 6 lbs!!
The weight loss isn't as great as it was before. I am 2 lbs away from 50 lbs though. I plan on having those 2 lbs gone by next Friday as I want to walk into my yearly physical proving that I can lose weight.

This time last year I was recommended to see a dietician. I was hoping to stay in Peterborough and live there. Instead I moved across Ontario to Port Elgin. I only saw the dietician once. She sat down with me and discussed how much I should lose. I wanted to lose 100 lbs by this time this year. I didn't start eating right and healthy until September... I've lost 1/2 that.

I think one of the things that gets me down is the fact that I didn't try. I was lazy. One thing that most people overweight do is blame. And I was one of those ones that blamed everyone else and made excuses for myself. You don't need to make excuses.
Dr Phil said it right... "you're fat because you want to be fat".
I decided I no longer wanted to be mocked and I began a journey. It's a journey which will never stop. Once I reach my goal I need to maintain it keeping that journey flowing.

So 50 lbs down, awesome! Another 100 to go. 62 more to go before September 25th. If I don't hit it, thats okay. I'm young, I'll do this.

One of my addictions I can't kick is a Large Double Double tea (two creams, two sugars).
I can't kick it. This morning I go to Tim Hortons, order my tea, walk to work... only to find out: it's coffee.
I HATE COFFEE. I can't get a taste for it and it just makes me feel awful. Well I've spent $1.50 on this coffee and I was going to drink it. And I did, well 3/4 of it. I felt horrible and I just felt like I wasted calories.
I know coffee isn't that good for you but neither is my double double tea.

My coworker gets to the office and says I'm going on a coffee run, do you want anything...
I jumped on that tea like no other. I just couldn't function knowing I had coffee instead of tea.
My tea is now long gone, mixing with that disgusting coffee in my tummy.

And then I start thinking, I just consumed probably 200 calories in my added coffee and tea. That cream and sugar just added 200 calories to my daily caloric intake.
Bull...

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I have been very busy lately. Between working out, working, the animals and my darling fiance I'm one busy girl.
Good news, I lost over the holidays. In fact I was shocked to see I dropped 4 lbs over the holidays season which was totally fantastic because I gorged on bad food and just generally had a good time.
I'm 4 lbs away from 50 lbs lost. I've always said when I hit 50 I'd get a tattoo to celebrate... well instead I got a kitten. I fell in love with him, his families home had been flooded and they didn't want him to get sick so he was staying at the pet shop until htey got things worked out. Decided to move and moved somewhere where he wasn't allowed to come. So he came home with me.
So now instead of my Tom Kitten tattoo I've got this beautiful kitten who I'm in love with.


Curves is great. I've been doing Curves Smart and burning between 600 and 700 calories in that 1/2 hour. I felt though that I was starting to get bored so I'm now taking two classes a week at a real gym. Last night was my first pilates class and oh boy does my abs ever hurt today. I woke up this morning feeling a bit of pain in my leg but by 9am those abs were sore. Looking forward to my next class on Thursday.